i can honestly say that one of the worst pains i've ever felt is loving someone who hates himself so much.
i'm not gonna lie, its kind of hard. but i couldn't stop loving him even if i wanted to. there's no choice in the matter.
all i can do is be there, and i just want him to stop hurting so fucking badly. if i knew ANYTHING i could do to make him better, i would do it. i just want to take it all away and i can't. all i want is for him to see how amazing he is and love himself as much as i love him and see that it does get better. life doesn't have to be about making an impact and it doesn't have to be pointless either. it's about peace and love and happiness and living to the fullest. that doesn't mean pleasing others. it means pleasing yourself.
how can you feel worthless when you're the best thing that's ever happened to me? how can you hate yourself when i love you beyond measure?
i know you can't help thinking how you think, it's not something you can change. and i know you think you're fucked up and don't deserve me. i try to prove you wrong but i guess i'm not trying hard enough. one day i'll show you how wrong you are, though. and i'll never, ever stop loving you. no matter how hard it is.
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anddd rant done.
goodnight.
i love you brandon