114i.--you have a way of uncovering beautiful things.ii.---when all you can do to keep from seeing the bad is to close your eyes to everything, you miss out on the good.
what is love ?"people think, people feel, and most don't give a shit about your thoughts and feelings. that's life."--i see when you're upset.when you withdraw and you won't hold my hand, and when you get all poetic and smoke and talk about feelings and death.i know how it feels and it's fucking terrible. you've lied one too many times and you're sick of this life, and sometimes other people can't fix you.when all i can do is sit there and listen, and all i want to do is take it all away, i wonder if i'm really as good for you as you say i am.--i grew up asking questions.that's why i analyze every last thought and feeling i have until they're obliterated into just simple facts. statistics.i barely feel anymore.when you rant to me, just to get it off your chest, i still ask why.i feel like the only thing i can do for you is find answers. but i'm not a therapist, nor a miracle worker.--there's nothing left to say.
fuck you.it's not your fault.it's my fault for trusting you.--you always have to surround yourself with the absolute best, which is why i'm always pushed aside.you think you're an artist. you always have to be noticed, which is why you go out of your way to make me into what you want me to be.--i'm starting to give up on you.
august.this car is hot. its hot and its stuffy and i'm sweating and this back seat isn't big enough for the two of us and your huge ego.you used to always be there. but you turned your back on me because you're too important to deal with me.i'm at my breaking point and all i want is to be held.[together]i want to be lied to and told, "it's going to be okay."maybe if someone cared enough to say it, i would believe it, if only for a second.
stoic.the butterflies were lies.so was the emptiness in your absence.it's all to make you believe i love youwhen i can't show it.please forgive me for my impassiveness.it's not always easy.